the game of life...

Sometimes, when I begin to think and ponder, I really end up in a world of my own. I can really zone out whats happening around me and just be engulfed in my own little world. At times I do enjoy that, but it's a hard cycle to get out of. So it is something that i really try to avoid. Alot of time this happens when I just keep to myself and really don't interact with people. I try to keep my mind occupied with other things and really don't focus what is at hand.

This is the game I play alot with myself. Growing up I always wanted to be someone I'm not, mainly because I really didn't know who I was and who I'm going to be. I use to create my own little world, population me and my imagination. Today, more sure of who I am, I still "warp out" now and then to imagine what my life could have been if this and that. But to be honest with you, I really can not complain where I am in my life. I have an awesome family who love me, a group of friends who's there for me, a job which isn't a dead end and my beautiful Ci who loves me for me.

It's funny what happens when you put words floating in your head down on "paper". For me at least it clears the air, or so to speak. Sometimes in life we think of only what we don't have or what we want and of the ifs and buts. Sometimes you just need to look at what you have and you can see how blessed your life really is.